I am Just A Girl from South Dakota, living a life with cerebral palsy.

 

 

"Speak the truth in love."  Ephesians 4:15

 

 

I been wanting to write a blog about what we say to each other for awhile now.  This week it has been on my mind a lot.  I said something to a friend, that now I wish I could take back.  In the moment, it seemed so harmless, but now that a couple days have past, I wish I never said it.

I think we all can feel that way at times.  We walk away from a conversation, thinking "What did I just say?"  If you are like me, you are thinking, you are the worst person to world.  For me I been very sensitive to people words, ever since I was young.  I wish I wasn't, but that how God made me.  But can you blame me, for so much of my childhood years, I got called very hurtful words by some peers.  I  start to believe it after awhile. 

 

I think we, including myself, still can use our words as weapons.   I think Jesus wants us to build each other up, and not tear each other down.  I know for me, I am more hurtful with my words to the people I am closest to.  I notice that I treat the people that I less relationship with, so much kinder, then my closest family and friends!  I hate this about myself.  I want to build up these people not tear them down!!

Gearing up for my 5k!

"Do to others as you would like them to do to you."  Luke 6:31

I am learning  that you can never take your words back!   Right after I said something to my friend, I wanted to take it back.  Easers the moment!  But I couldn't!  I am also learning to remember who I am talking to.  For me, because of my past, I am not good with sarcasm.  I am growing in this and not taking people as serious as I use to.   But because I been teased, sometimes I can't tell if people are being "funny" or just mean.  When I tell a friend something, I need to ask myself, "Can they handle what I about to tell them?"   Not all of us can handle the same information, or approach of how it is said. 

For me, there are some stuff I can not handle.  I use to get mad at myself, because I would cry and get my feelings hurt.  I would think I was a horrible person, and should changed, be better at sarcasm. But the Lord has taught me that just who I am, and it is ok.  I use to apologize for crying.  One of my friend's here at camp, never apologizes for crying.  She knows that she is a crier, and she is ok with it. God gave us the ability to cry for a reason.
  
All this to say, I want to be better with my words.  Am I building up or tearing down?  Am I treating people, with my word, the way I want to be treated?  Am I loving my closest friends and family with my word? 

"Don't look out only for your own interest, but take an interest in others, too."  Philippians 2:4


This is something God is working on in me!  I might fail at it time to time, so please forgive me if m words are hurtful to you.