A Place called home

Main Street of Deadwood!!  This town has a special place in my heart!!

We all can relate to music at some point.  If it just to have fun and dance, or to carry us through a difficult time.  For me, music is very healing.   I am realizing that a lot of my blogs center around music.   I love music, especially Christian and Country music.  Music has always been something that has helped me get through hard times.  Now I can't go to sleep without my music.  I have learned that music helps my mind not to wonder at night. 
"Praise to the Lord!  How good to sing to our God.  How delightful and fitting."  Psalms 147:1  Music is a way I can worship to the Lord.  I love to sing out loud to the Lord. 

3 feet of snow in April.  This I do not miss!!

 

I write all this because, right now, I am listening to the song "Your Going to Miss This" by Trace Adkins.   This song makes me think of Deadwood, SD.  I grew up in Deadwood.  As long as I remember I couldn't wait to get out of that town.  I thought it was the worse place.  I really hated the weather!!  I also didn't feel like I had many friends.  Yes I knew everyone in town, but felt very lonely.  I struggled a lot with depression.  I believed the lie that I was different, and there was something wrong with me, because I had a disability.  This made me believe that nobody wanted me around.  Music became a great friend to me. 
Trace writes, "She couldn't wait to turn 18."  Oh how I could relate.  I went to college 20 miles away, but knew that after college I was leaving!!!  I even told the guy I was seeing in college that after college I was moving!!  He didn't agree.  But I had plans, and God had bigger plans!!!  Oregon or a Young Life camp were not on my radar!!!


Lots of memories in this town!!  Didn't always see as good, but it always be my home!!

  My plans were to move to a big city, meet someone and start a family.  Oh how God has such different plans for us!!!  His plan was for me to move to Oregon, in the middle for nowhere (literally) and become the person He created me to be.  I thought Deadwood/Lead were "The middle of nowhere!"  Till I moved here!!!!
There is another song by Big Daddy Weave Called "Redeemed."  They sing "Seem like all I could see the struggle.  Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past.  Bound up in shackles of all my failures, wondering how long is this going to last."  These words really it home for me.  For a long time, all I could see was how broken I was on the inside and outside.  There was nothing good about me.  My past struggles where of a little girl full of anger and hate towards herself, and believing everyone felt the same of me!!  I hated that I had CP. 
"I am Redeemed.  You set me free  I'm not who I use to be!!!  (big Daddy Weave)
I am so thankful I am not who I use to be.  The Lord has put a new song into my heart, or many new songs in my heart!! 





so pretty!

As I look back, I am so thankful for growing up in Deadwood and having CP.   I love the history of Deadwood, and it took me moving away, but I love the beauty of it!!!  In Trace Adkins song he sings "He tells here it a nice place.  She says 'It will do for now.'"  The chores of the song talks about going to miss where you are, and wanting it back.  I never thought I would feel this way about Deadwood.  Don't get me wrong, I love where I live, and what God has done in me and for me.  He has given me a new song in my heart!  He have given me a new view of my hometown!!  I now can say I miss it!!  This is on my mind today, because this week is Ski For Light.  I think I took that this awesome event was right in my back yard.  I loved SFL, but I don't think I truly appreciated that it was so close to home!!   I miss the people of Lead and Deadwood, and will always call it home!!!!  :)   I hoping next year to make it back to walk a 5k!!!!