I am Just A Girl from South Dakota, living a life with cerebral palsy.: "Education is good, but it not better then wisdom." Joyce Meyer

It is so clear and kind of crazy how the Lord keeps confirming me to tell my story.
Today in my devotional I was reading about the difference between knowledge and wisdom. I am reading Joyce Meyer's "New day, New you." She writes, "Knowledge is good but wisdom is better. Wisdom is the right kind of knowledge. A wise person will always be knowledgeable, but not all knowledgeable people are wise." She goes on to say, "Education is good, but it is not better than wisdom. God's Word tells us to cry out for wisdom; seek it as we would silver and gold; make it a vital necessity in life."

These words really struck my heart. School did not come easy for me. I struggled with my classes from middle school through college. I did not get straight "As" as my sisters. It just didn't come naturally for me. I think part of my struggle was the way I was viewing myself. As I wrote in my last blog, I think part of my struggle was that I believed I was stupid. I had so many lies in my head, that it was hard to get past them. I had great teachers that helped me in great ways, but I was dealing with a inner struggle. I did go to college at Black Hills State University. I wanted to become an elementary teacher. I wanted to work with disabled kids. But as I started going to classes, I soon realized that this might not be the path for me. To get into the College of Ed. you had to get "C's" or better in all your classes. My freshman year I took history. I always struggled with history. To memorize all the dates and events were very hard for me. So that semester I flunked. So I had to take it again, I picked a different professor. I barely passed, but hey I passed, but not with a "C" to get into the College of Ed. At this point I thought maybe it time to look at something else. I also had to take College Algebra. In high school, Algebra was my favorite class. When I took College Algebra, I had no idea what they were talking about. I believe that the teacher of the class, makes a whole lot of difference. I was a freshmen, in my second year and really didn't know the teachers. Looking back I should of tried again with a different teacher!!! But at the time, I was just trying to get through!!!

I did it!! It wasn't easy but I am not a quitter!!

I believe, now that I am older, that the lies I believed growing up played a role in my education. When you hear that you are stupid, or retarded, you start to believe those lies. The lies were so loud in my mind that it was hard to focus or believe that I was anything else. But because I was a determined young girl I went on to graduate from Black Hills State University in December of 2005.
God really used BHSU in my life. That is where I met some of my best friends. One of my best friend's, Kate, who I met in the dorms. Kate is how I eventfully found myself in Oregon living at a Young Life camp. College is also were my relationship with the Lord became real.
As I grown in the Lord, I don't believe those lies anymore. This is were the devotional really struck me today. I may not gotten the best grades in school, or have become what I thought a teacher should look like. in a school teaching math and history to children, but I have become a wise person, with the help of the Lord.
Joyce Meyer uses the verse "The reverent fear and worship of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom." Psalm 111:10. I want this for myself. I do not need a teaching degree or a master degree to be a teacher. I just need to have open hands and a open heart to where God is leading me.

There is a song by Tenth Avenue North called "You are More." This is the chores.
"You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

I AM REMADE!!!!